I am finding myself daydreaming and regularly dreaming of the option of returning to PR with cutie. From a logical standpoint it does sound ridiculous considering all of the cons of living there:
-Constant basic utility interruptions (water, electricity, internet, phone service, etc).
– High unemployment (people with MBAs still working at fast-food joints).
-High crime rate. Don’t even get me started on the “tecato tax” to pay at a public parking lot!
-High costs on utilities and transportation services.
On the other hand, if such a a thing were to occur, it may not sound so bad.
Why do I feel like this? Well, for one thing, I miss seeing the clear, bright blue skies there:
Some how, there is a healing power emanating from spending a day at a place like Playa Sucia pictured above. Spending the day outdoors in the winter where everything is asleep (leafless trees, yellowed grass, occasional snow) does not provide the same effect:
Seven years ago I viewed things very differently from how I view things now. I was in my twenties who saw this mystic land land of opportunity as the only way to live a better life. But its not the land that has changed my view:
-Southern office politics are the worst!
-Irresponsible attitudes from my peers and friends on accountability, relationships, etc. (Maybe I am being too harsh on them).
-High taxes on everything and rising costs of living.
I know I should keep in mind that a change in the current lifestyle will have a dramatic effect on our lives because we are used to the nuances of where and how we live at the moment. A move to ANY place will be expensive and would have to justify all of the hard work that would be placed behind such a move. Not to mention that we do have friends and family in this state (from Cutie’s side of the family).
Maybe I am just homesick. Or something more.
I visited my family last Xmas. A lot of them barely remembered me (due to Alzheimer’s). I saw how age was starting to affect their health and how the opportunities for spending time with them were becoming less and less. I also know for a fact that my brother is not the most responsible person in the world and should anything happen to my aging parents, I would have to be available to help take care of them. I am also concerned about how Cutie would adjust to a completely different and a lot slower lifestyle with not having much to do. But I am jumping the gun here. I would have to wait and see how other things will roll out. Regardless of the outcome, I just want to live life in peace.